2021.10.15 22:16 Throwaway69420666501 now that this years festival is over, who’s would y’all like to see next year?
2021.10.15 22:16 Arturion34 Forever DC'd
I am starting to think there's no fix. No cure. A childhood of being consistently devalued, unwanted, thrown away, taken back, thrown away again has deprived me the ability to feel any human connection beyond physical.
I have no trust, no faith or belief that anyone actually cares. And I don't think there is anything that would actually ever change that. I have a partner of 8 years. And I often feel just as disconnected to her, as I do a stranger. Oh, I love them. I truly care. I even let down most of my barriers somehow.
But if the connections a 2 lane bridge, the lane coming to me has long crumbled and fallen into the river.
I had hope. A friend, who I didn't feel the need to protect myself from. Someone who called me family. Someone I could do the same. And then, suddenly there was a fight between them and my partner, over a conflicting communication style and trauma responses. They weren't friends anymore in a matter of hours, and who could say where I was with them. They assured me we would still be friends. And then, they were essentially gone. We went from messaging all the time and planning trips and things to do, to 2-3 messages that it feels like I dragged out of them. The irony being, this person gave me the confidence to remove the people I called friends who were toxic to me. The ones who made jokes about my trauma, excluded me, were rude to my partner. I thought, oh, I have X, and they would never do this. I don't need this. And now, I have nothing.
I tried harder than I thought possible. And I still have no connection. If anything, the crushing feeling of hope being ripped away was just that much worse because of how close I felt. Knowing that the closeness I thought we had, is gone, and that the crumbs that are left will be gone too. How can any of it have actually meant anything to them, or been real, if they would so casually discard it I ask. And the answer hurts. Because the only one that seems to fit: it didn't. Once more, i found myself filling the role of friend and confident just because they needed one. They didn't actually want to be mine.
I don't know what the point is anymore. Growing up, I wanted to be independent. Control my own life, and have the ability to be secure. Here I am. I have enough money. I have a home. A stable job. A partner of 7 years. And yet, I feel a crippling loneliness. A need, for just 1 person to be my friend, through the hard and easy.
What am I supposed to do at this point? Ive met the Phsyiological needs, the safety needs. But the next step "Love and Belongingness". That seems as much as a fantasy as dragons.
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2021.10.15 22:16 supergamer_000004 Meme made by me. Spoilers for Chapter 330!
2021.10.15 22:16 HaZe_Fn Kirby Is My Spirit Animal
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2021.10.15 22:16 KaniamLaBinak Enjoying the moment
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2021.10.15 22:16 MillennialBets Metals/Mining/Construction Stocks Ranker for Oct-15-2021
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2021.10.15 22:16 BadassTrader Can we get this TRENDING? Kenny wants them... but Apes can take them back! #DRSYOURSHARES! (Updoot and tweet!)
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2021.10.15 22:16 Jacob_tothe_F Clean 94- Might have to pull the trigger and pick this thing up. Opinions?
2021.10.15 22:16 Boozuki New Gaming channel! Friday night funkin' and more!
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2021.10.15 22:16 snkde Frito-Lay Ultimate Hot & Bold Smart Variety Pack Includes Popcorners, Simply Organic Doritos, Baked Cheetos, Smartfood Popcorn, Sunchips 40 Count~$14.31 With S&S @ Amazon
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2021.10.15 22:16 kidneykiller I love hookers and drugs
I started smoking joints at 16 but nothing serious. Until I was 23 I was in a way too serious relationship and then after we split the downfall started. Moved to a new city and tried so many drugs that I can't even remember what I took. I was also having lots of sex with hookers, doing experimental drugs from the deep web, went to several gloryholes, peepholes, you name it and I even snorted molly on a hookers ass crack. Yeah... That line was literally full of shit...
I ended up kinda sorting my life out and getting married but I still feel the urges of getting into that wild times of doing drugs and shagging prostitutes. I want to really take some holidays off without my wife and do all that shit again for the old times, even if it's only for a week...
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2021.10.15 22:16 tcn446 Wut
2021.10.15 22:16 NotACaterpillar I found a possible mention of an ancestor in a newspaper, but I'm not sure I understand what the text means
I have been looking for some more information on a Arthur Corbin (1882-1918). He died in WW1 around the 21st September 1918 (on leave to England between 8th December 1917 to 22nd December 1917). I have plenty of information of his service, but I'm more looking at his pre-WW1 days and his wife's life.
The article I found, dating April 3rd 1918, possibly mentions her, but I don't really understand what the paper is talking about. It is a tribunal case of some sort, but there is no more context.
Byfleet Tribunal CasesThe article in question at the British Newspaper Archive (third column last paragraph)
The following eases were decided by the Epsom Rural Tribunal on Thursday week: […] C. H. Weller, Rose Nurseries, Lower Ashtead, gardener, one month;
2021.10.15 22:16 KyriakosCH Things changed since you last were here
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2021.10.15 22:16 RRuluZ Football is a game and this is a squid
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2021.10.15 22:16 dirrtybutter My heart and soul. Here we are at 13! He hates his new bandana unfortunately lol.
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2021.10.15 22:16 Farrekarre Try this…u have nothing to loose
First I’m gonna tell what u should try u then I’m gonna talk about my experience with insomnia. U might start reading this be like “bullshit” but please try it…u have nothing to loose and this was recommended by 2 different psychologist that I’ve met. And it helped both times that I tried. Here it goes: Go to sleep at 12 and wake up at 6 am. When u go to bed and don’t fall asleep within 15-20 minutes GET UP and do something else, DO NOT lay in bed. Get up and read or stretch or watch tv or do dishes till u feel tired again (do NOT use ur phone). ONLY WHEN u feel tired again then go ahead and try to fall to asleep again. Repeat this process until u fall asleep or even if u don’t. U need to do this for 2 WEEKS AND BE VERY STRICT with the schedule. 2 hours before sleep prepare urself for sleep like brush ur teeth and stuff like that. During the day try to be physically active and socialise. When the alarm goes off at 6 am GET UP. Don’t lay in bed. The first few nights u won’t get much sleep just like myself but it WILL get better. To see if it gives results write down when u go to bed, when u get up and do something else and when u lay in bed again. Write down all the times for when u get out of bed and get in the bed between 12-6. U will see that the amount of time that ur out of bed will become less as the days go by. Do NOT take naps during the day and don’t lay down and close ur eyes to get some rest. preferably u should NOT use medicine while doing this. IF u see result after a week add 30 minutes of sleep either at night or in the morning. Keep on adding weekly IF u see results otherwise keep the same schedule. And last thing. This will work only and ONLY if ur very strict with this sleeping schedule and it will take a few days before results. Here are the reasons as to why I recommend this. 1. phycologists will recommend u this 2. There are studies and experiments proving this being the most effective natural “cure” for insomnia. And 3. From personally trying. I’ve had insomnia for the past 9 months and I’ve tried 3 different medicines, melatonin, atarax and teralen. None of them worked. There have been times when I didn’t sleep for weeks and thought I was gonna die. My head hurt so bad from lack of sleep that I ended at the hospital. And nothing apart from this helped. This will have best result on people who sleep as little as myself. If ure already sleeping 5 hours and want to get more sleep, this MIGHT help but it’s not guaranteed. Now if u already knew about this DONT SLANDER ME PLEASE :D. this is for those who didn’t know and I’m just tryna help. Good luck everyone. Remember to be disciplined. U already can’t sleep so u have nothing to loose. Let me know if u’ve tried and if it worked. If u have any questions just ask wish all yall a good night of sleep.
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2021.10.15 22:16 stepouthot1738 Who want to degrade by watching? Dm
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2021.10.15 22:16 fastvoted-bot Hacker News: A viable solution for Python concurrency | 195 points in 2 hours
2021.10.15 22:16 OzzerSketch She-Ra, mine
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2021.10.15 22:16 Ivan__8 Might as well well post it there. It might be stupid, but writing it made me feel better, I just hope they'll stop making me do this one day.
I FUCKING HATE COUNTING, WHY DO WE EVEN HAVE TO DO THAT IF WE HAVE FUCKING CALCULATORS?! IT JUST TAKES MY USEFUL FUCKING TIME AND DEMOLISHES IT INTO NOTHING! AND NOT JUST WE HAVE TO COUNT IN SYSTEM WITH 10 AND 2 NUMBERS BUT ALSO FUCKING 3, 8, 6, 3¾, AND ALL WITHOUT CALCULATORS, WHAT EVEN IS THE POINT OF THIS?!!!? TO DRIVE ME MAD?! MAKE ME CRAZY?! MAKE ME YELL AT A FUCKING NUMBERS ON SCREEN THAT DON'T EVEN EXIST!? I'M FUCKING SICK OF IT, I WANT THIS FUCKING COUNTING TO END EVEN MORE THAN I WANT TO SLEEP AND I FUCKING DO WANT IT, I HAVEN'T SLEPT NORMALLY IN 2 WEEKS
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2021.10.15 22:16 UWCG 50 Percent of Republicans Back Tax Hikes on Wealthiest Americans to Fund Biden's Agenda
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2021.10.15 22:16 Trashpotatolol H: Ve fr 50 cal or be90 50 cal W: Vanguard ap sentinel heavy metal chest piece
2021.10.15 22:16 lovestretch10 Asked for a third interview and told it was over lunch and it will be short.
I’m applying to work at this small company of 6 people. I met the two owners on the first one and they asked me the typical questions. They called me back for a second interview where I met the whole team and they all asked me questions. Now I just got a call to meet with the two owners again over lunch next week. They said they only had a few questions and that it would be short. What does this mean? I feel like they have asked almost everything they could possibly asked in the two previous interviews. Does it being short and out of the office mean it could be an offer?
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2021.10.15 22:16 Sepulchure24794 I am looking for a Engine Coolant Pipe!